Friday, May 20, 2016

When you hold a grudge but realize you have to let go...

Good morning all-

Recently, I was challenged on a human level.  I know, your wondering what that level is.  It's the level called envy, desire, anger, redemption, that's what I'm talking about.  Sometimes I forget I'm one step off from being sinful and then it happens and I realize, great I don't have it all together.

God has done some great things in my life over the last months.  He's taught me how to be more trusting.  He has built a confidence and desire in me to believe that He is who He says He is.  He has stretched me, shaken me, molded me and purified me. So much so that I'm here today stronger and much better for it.

So you would think with all this growth straight off the main vine, this little sprouting would have developed stamina against anger, hurt, and envy.  Guess not?  I'm human with a whole lot of the Holy Spirit in me.  So as I wished for things that were wrong, yes, I was convicted.  Dang it, I wanted to stomp my foot like a two-year old and get my way.  That's not in the plan though, God has a different path.

That's when I realized it was time to repent and pray.  Instead of filling my heart with a grudge, hard feelings and whatever else comes with being two, I surrendered and heard "pray."  Really, that's all I do lately.  And yet, that one word kept coming in like a flood and I knew standing in the middle of an airport that's exactly what I had to do.  And, I did.  I prayed, repented and asked God to fill my heart with compassion to pray for the betterment of the person I wished got their just dues. 

Who heard it?  No one.  Who benefits from it?  Strangely enough, I think both parties will.  That one person will never know that I prayed but I know and Jesus knows.  At the end of the day, I boarded my plane happier and full of an excess of wisdom.  I learned that I'm still very human and that through faith I knew exactly what I had to do.  I will continue to capture every thought and move on from my feelings into the power of the cross.  Feelings will fail me for sure.  Hurt, anger and envy will destroy. 

If your struggling today with something similar, sit down and really assess your motives.  Do you really want something bad to happen to someone?  Do you hate someone for being human themselves? Have you lost your love, mercy and understanding for others that are as sinful as yourself?  Take it from me, it's time to talk to Jesus! He forgave me so it's time I forgave others.  It is not a tooth for a tooth as the world would have us believe.  It's grace in the face of hurt, that's where Jesus meets us every time.

Thanks for reading and if this blog helps you, help someone else and share Jesus with them.  We all need to hear that He exists, He ministers, He's wonderful!  May today bring you much joy as you examine the power of the Holy Spirit and the might of loving a Savior that forgives.

Colossians 3:12-14 NIV

Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. 13Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. 14And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.

God please help us to remember to pray for people that trespass against us and lead us not in temptation...We need YOU!

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