I'm sorry it's been awhile since my last post. I have been thinking about many things and sometimes when I do — I'm not sure what to write. Like many things in my life, I wake up one day and know exactly what to say.
This year, I was laid off for the first time in my life. I loved the job, it was exciting, full of travel and new people. I was challenged at a level I haven't been for a long time and that was part of the problem. I let opportunities slide through my fingers because along the way I had lost confidence in who I was. My lack of confidence didn't change my path, the company went back into design and still isn't in total release. The experience taught me many things and I am grateful for the time I spent with those people.
I'm on a new journey and it has been full of peaks and valleys. The business is full of wonderful people and the obstacles may be as high to overcome. I'm different now. I held back last time but not this time. I have a job to do and I will do it. And yet, in the quiet I still hear Jesus calling. What does it all mean?
The road seems like a super highway. I'm going in five different directions a day. How am I supposed to do it all? That's the question that keeps coming through. I have a husband, sons that still need me, a business to run and my new job. I'm exhausted at the end of the day trying to figure out all the different pieces to this puzzle I call life. Fun, what is that? I find myself entrenched in the day to day stuff and I forget to even take a moment to look out into the stars.
This week I made some very needed changes. My motto for this year is "be the change." I bought a notebook with that phrase on the cover right before I started this job. I need to change and I need to be the change. Your probably wondering what I'm babbling about. It's simple. The Lord wants me to do something. I keep holding back needing confirmation, courage and faith that it's really Him calling, pathetic I know. There are young people changing the world for good every day and I need confirmation.
As you know, if you've been reading this blog, I have been praying the 99/1 prayer. For every lost soul around the world, I've been praying that they will see Jesus. People are getting pulled in a million different direction, including me. I'm not here for me. Astounding concept I know. Look around on LinkedIn or anywhere else and you will see people needing to be seen. I want to be seen, you want to be seen, we all want to be seen but that's not our journey. It's not about filling stadiums with the saved, it's about calling to the ones that are so full of shame, hate, anger, and who knows what else. Jesus didn't come for the people that knew God, He came for those that didn't.
I hear Him, I'm praying that He will lead me and all those I love to further His kingdom and as I do this; I look up into a dark sky only to see a rainbow. Not just any rainbow, a double rainbow. It hasn't rained here in months. We are dry and the grasshoppers are eating everything they can. Even the weeds are shriveling up. At that very moment, I know I have to keep, keeping on. I have to keep posting on Facebook. I have to keep writing this blog. I have to work on the book and not make excuses. I have to get out of my way of wanting to be seen and put Him first and foremost in front of anyone that hits this site. This is not about me.
As far as hearing His call, we are all called to spread the words of Jesus. I'm not the only one He's calling. He needs me and you and 10,000 more. He needs people to show love and stop the hate. He needs us to pray for those that lost their homes in places we may never see. He needs us to pray for the president of North Korea, China, Japan, Russia and oh yes, our US president. These men hold the keys to destroy the earth. These men make powerful decisions everyday. They are just men so what do they need, prayer, petition and wisdom.
We are called ladies to do whatever we can to lift up the children, men and women all over the world. Apathy can no longer stand by and be our guide. Time constraints, fearful thoughts, nor needing to promote the right image can be our descriptors. We must take the word, the sword of life and spread it through this world. My medium of choice is on the superhighway called the Internet. You have the same power. Share a post, read, speak and do it again. Don't stop until you stop and I'm not going to either. I'm going to remember that rainbow and ask the Lord to keep leading me behind Him, not in front of Him.
That' what's been on my mind. May God bless you and keep you!
Romans 11:29 NIV
28Regarding the gospel, they are enemies on your account; but regarding election, they are loved on account of the patriarchs. 29For God’s gifts and His call are irrevocable.