Good morning all-
I was a little stunned yesterday when my youngest son asked, "Why do you keep writing your blog?" He thinks that the 20 hits I get a day are insignificant and I guess if you look at other blogs and websites it might be. Then again, if I just wanted hits on my blog I would have probably stopped months ago. Would it be nice to look up and find out that hundreds of women were hitting my blog? Of course. And yet, I don't write for my own fame or glory; I write for Christ's. For some it wouldn't be enough to see just a few hits, a few countries and a few followers, for me, it's about obedience and the love I hold deep in my heart for our God.
Have I wondered why hundreds of women haven't caught on or if this blog touched someones life and they came to know Christ through it? Absolutely. I wouldn't be human if I didn't wonder how the words that are inspired through the Holy Spirit are working in others lives but in the end, I write out of a calling so deep in me I can almost hear God whisper as I sit down to type this out.
I have to admit there are things that got in the way this year, like work and family, so I haven't written every day but I have written a ton. I believe this will make the 271st blog. That's a lot of words, a ton of Scripture and an immense amount of prayer. Just think if you journaled every prayer from the beginning of the year until now. We are just a few days away from the new year and my journey has been chronicled on the Internet for all to see.
If you steadily read this blog, you have been with me in sorrow, in prayer, in warfare and in love of Christ. You have walked with the Holy Spirit, cried out to our Lord and sought to find Him in every corner of the world. Your heart has expanded with the need to pray for other countries and other women dealing with far worse situations than us. You have sought to find solace and peace in a fallen world through Jesus and you have continue to grow spiritually so that you could participate and spread the gospel. You have sought to be a force against the darkness and God has heard your words, your prayers and His Scripture as we have bowed our heads and prayed to our glorious maker.
For me, He has grown me up and continued to guide me on my path. He has walked with me as I felt like I might not have anything else to say and then given me verses and words to speak to you. He has guided me in prayer and heard each one as if it was new everyday. He knows my heart and He calls women to this site and others, not for my glory or yours, but for His. He is the maker of the universe, the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords, we are just His vessels, trying to be obedient in a world that captures our interests anywhere but to Him.
So from a child's perspective, I guess I am wasting time but from my perspective, I began to see more clearly and love deeper the minute my fingers hit the keyboard. I lost myself and gained Jesus in the midst of every word and every prayer. It's almost like the Holy Spirit took over and I am just a vessel to be molded and formed. I have become a new creature this year. I'm excited to see what God will put on my heart and to have a format to express it. Yes, it leaves me vulnerable to the world, but who cares as long as I live in obedience to a God that loves me. Being quiet never got me anywhere. I loved Christ but I did not live to love Him out loud. Now I do, with all the passion I have held in my heart, ever since I was little. I haven't always got my way and for that I'm grateful because along the way I have learned to trust Him more, love Him deeper and worship Him stronger and bolder than ever before.
He is the reason I live and my life is not my own. When we are born, our mothers and fathers try to protect us and raise us up and then we must be put out into the world. Who stays with us as we try new things, slide down the slope of sin and come up for air just in time to be saved, Jesus! We are His and our life belongs to Him. He knows this better than anyone else. He asked His Father to take this cup from Him and in the end He was beaten and hung on a cross, not because He wanted to but to fulfill a covenant for His people. He bears our sins and was beaten and hung for them. He is the one that ultimately knows true sacrifice. My son may not understand that now, although He knows the story but every time I write and bear my soul, I hope he sees that my obedience is all that matters and hopefully, Jesus will use it to further His kingdom all around the world.
Be aware my sisters that we are in a time where personal glory is very important. It is part of human nature to be successful, driven and accomplished. Jesus was all those things and more but although He could have been the High Priest, He chose to be the lamb. Confusing even to me that this great man, God in human form, would not have received His true place on earth. That He would have to die a horrific death to show the world who He was and still we have people that don't believe.
I challenge you today to look at yourself in the mirror and see what God is calling you to do. It might seem risky and more than likely it will put you in a very vulnerable place but take the call, it's totally worth it. I hope as always that these words, inspired by our maker will give you courage to take the call and walk beside Him. It's not enough to call Him our Savior if we aren't willing to give something back to Him. If you think your life is your own, think again. It belongs to our Lord who lost His life for you and me. May God bless you and keep you today and may the Lord of light shine down upon the world and reveal Himself in all His majesty.
Mark 14:36 NKJV:
And He said, "Abba, Father, all things are possible for You. Take this cup away from Me; nevertheless, not what I will, but what You will."
Luke 22:42 NKJV:
saying, "Father, if it is Your will, take this cup away from Me; nevertheless not My will, but Yours, be done"
Psalm 116:13 NKJV:
I will take up the cup of salvation, and call upon the name of the Lord.
Jeremiah 25:15 NKJV:
For thus says the Lord God of Israel to me: "Take this wine cup of fury from My hand, and cause all the nations, to whom I send you, to drink it.
My prayer today:
O, Lord the nations are calling for a Savior. You can hear the cries to heaven for peace instead of war, for safety instead of chaos, and for food instead of hunger. The world is raging like the sea and the men that lead the nations are full of foolishness. Only You can save a broken world. Only You can bring peace among the people and only You can feed the starving. I beg of You to hear the cry of the women Lord and begin to show Your mighty hand on every nation and to every people group around the world. We beg of You to share Your words and Your wisdom with our leaders and to have them come before You, denying themselves fame, and living for Your glory. We are like robots, following a silent leader that puts a command in and spits out a formula. You are the only formula we need. You took the cup of righteousness to be able to stand by Your Father. You gave us the Holy trinity and are continually fighting the battle for souls. Help us stay obedient to Your word and forgive us when we sin against You. Give us wisdom in the face of difficult decisions and help us stand with You no matter the sacrifice. Show our sons and daughters that what we do for You, we do willingly and that in return, all we ask is that You are with us. We want men and women to grow up knowing and seeking Your face for generations to come. I know that every bad situation here on earth will not be reconciled, at least until You come again, but show us our paths and light our way and give us hope to continue on in the journey You have given us. We give You our lives and all the glory, for without You we are nothing but with You, we are loved. Love the nations, bring peace to Your people and give us purpose beyond ourselves. In Jesus name, AMEN