I left Wichita Kansas early this morning on my first business trip since I left the corporate world. I'm excited and full of anticipation. It reminds me of the day I got saved. I was so full of hope and excitement for Jesus and my heart was open wide. I'm there again just more mature, tried and tested. Life has away of doing that but then you put God into it and you get steel being sharpened. The heat has been hot for some time now. I have often felt like a piece of pottery being molded and re-molded. I can't say I loved every minute of it because I didn't. I put fear, worry, anxiety and obsession in front of love, peace and faith.
The lesson to be learned was that in order for me to have true faith, I needed to surrender all and live moment by moment. Anybody ever try that? It's just not that easy. Life is to be directed, drawn out and should go exactly to plan. Well, if you can say you're one of those people then you are truly blessed. I, however, haven't been that lucky.
As I give God all the glory for the doors He is opening up for me, I must also give Him all the glory for restoring my faith, helping me to release control and only live for today. The glory fully belongs to Jesus because there is no human way I could do it. I'm just too type A to give up everything.
Having time on my hands made me go through old notes, these notes consisted of prayers from 2015 and wow how I see God's hand in everything that's happening now. I prayed for adventure, so I quit my job. I prayed I would trust, so I quit my job. I prayed that I would have faith that moved a mountain, so I quit my job. Do you get the picture? And, yes, I know I sound crazy but I was on my knees the whole time. I was asking, seeking, reading, praying and getting Holy direction. My person was stretched to the limit and as I was stretched, the Holy Spirit started filling in the gaps. He reminded me that the only direction was one that He had for my life and fortunately, I don't have to figure out all the details.
Faith restored is one of the greatest gifts I have ever received. I had become a product of the world. I looked at things and could project the outcome. I forgot the power of the cross, the beauty of the death and resurrection of Jesus and the supernatural. I was looking at the circumstances like a detective looking at evidence. If I'm not planning and plotting out my future, who will? Well, the truth is God couldn't get through to me. My cellular tower was intermittent and the signal was fading and then a trial came and I had to open up the channels and faith opened up. And that's the day Jesus met me once again. He didn't scold me for lacking faith. He didn't judge me for all that I had put in front of Him. All He did was meet me right where I was and when He did, my faith was restored in a God that is faithful.
I'm sure this journey will have many more turns. I will rest in today though, for tomorrow will come soon enough. Your peace for today resides in your faith for today. How do you get both? You accept that Jesus does have the wheel and you're part of the tapestry, living moment by moment with Him. That's what I'm going to do.
I hope today finds you well my sisters and if you don't know Jesus, today is the day! It's so simple. All you have to do is say, "Jesus, I believe in You. I believe You died on a cross for my sins and that I'm forgiven through Your blood." What is your gift? Your faith will be restored, not in man, but in God!
John 3:16 New International Version (NIV)
16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.