Monday, August 24, 2015

I am who God made me to be...

Good morning all-

Have you ever wondered who you are?  Have you questioned whether you are worthy?  Have you worried about what people think of you?  Do you feel defeated often?  If you can answer yes to any or all of these questions then your just like me.  Oh how I want to be liked, loved and honored. Unfortunately, that is not always the case.  You could be misrepresented, misunderstood or just not liked.  God promised that we would have hardships and that people wouldn't always agree with what we think and the fact of the matter is; most won't understand you, believe in you or when times get tough remember who you are.

What's our recourse when times get hard, when we're misunderstood?  Do we defend ourselves?  Do we attack?  What should we do?  We should be still.  We should take every negative thought and capture it. We should pray for our tongues and we should repent, over and over again.

Wouldn't it be great if we could do that?  Instead, most of us would defend ourselves, get angry, say things we don't mean and at the end of the day, no one suffers but us.  We suffer because instead of remembering who we serve, what our purpose is, we fall on the world and the world's sword.

When we fall, how do we get back up?  We stop, we listen and we reflect.  We don't judge, we don't get angry, we react the way Christ would have.  I've thought about that a lot in the last weeks.  Like anyone else, when I get angry or I don't feel heard, I react.  I have always hated to be ignored, pushed aside or thought unworthy.  And yes, I am full of myself in those moments.  But over the last weeks and months, I have realized something very important; I am who God made me to be.

I am human.  I have feelings and emotions. Lately, too many to count.  I think I have held my emotions in for so long, they have been coming out in a flood.  That's okay though because in order for me to really be a Godly woman, I have to be washed clean.  I hate being weak.  So why have I gone through a journey of being weak?  I have asked myself that over and over and I have come to one conclusion, for the sanctification of my life.

Christ healed the masses.  They followed Him wherever He went.  So much so, that He had to escape to the mountains just to get some peace.  He was adored, loved and worshiped.  And yet, those same people crowded around Him and humiliated Him.  When Pontius Pilot let the crowd decide, they chose to save a murderer over Him. When He was asked to defend himself, He said nothing.  I think we can all learn from that.  He had every right to be hurt, angry and frustrated.  He had every right to defend His honor and to say to all, "Are you kidding me? I saved you all and this is how you treat me." He never spoke a word.  Oh how I wish I was more like Him.  I wish that I could sit back and be the same way.  He died for us. He was beaten for us.  He was crucified for us.  It's very humbling, don't you agree?

Whether it be in marriage, relationships or with people we don't even know, is it worth justifying yourself?  I really don't think so anymore.  Do we really ever justify what we've done for others?  Will anyone really ever see who we are?  No one knows us but Jesus and He's trying to purify all that green sludge that lives inside of us.  You know, jealousy, envy, anger, frustration and pride just to name a few.  The question shouldn't be how do I justify myself, it should be how do I become more like the person God made me to be.

Our lesson is in Jesus.  His behavior should be a light.  Most of the time, we participate in our downfall, Jesus didn't.  He helped people, even the ones that would betray Him.  No one knows better than Jesus, who you are and why you're here.  In the last months, I have asked Him to reveal Himself to me.  I needed to understand my path and understand why I had to be broken.  Pride, envy, anger and the tongue, do not belong in a woman that God has made to love, encourage and to spread the word.  How can any of us spread the word if we are looking for every one's acceptance?

Being God's woman means I must take the correction, move on and become the person He made me to be.  I can't be defined by the world in anyway.  I must be defined by the Word of God.  It's His favor I seek.  So for the last months and days, I have repented and tried to remember who God made me to be.  After the flood gates were opened wide, I found her.  Jesus and I walked hand and hand and I have her back.  Now I just need to walk daily, pray a lot and remember that I was made for this day.  I'm real.  I have faults and I am very aware of them.  But in the end, I am God's child, chosen to love and encourage and with all my heart that's what I hope to do.

I hope this post encourages you, especially if you've been struggling with any or all of these emotions.  God warns us against gossip, anger, envy and our tongues.  I think women do this more then men but we all have our sins.  I hope you really think about how you were wonderfully made.  I hope you capture a glimpse of who God made you to be.  I hope that you see the beautiful person God has made and I hope He corrects you the way He has me.  I've learned more about life in these last months, maybe more than my entire life. I'm a warrior who needs a Savior!

Be blessed because you are wonderfully made!

  • Psalms 139:14 (KJV)

    I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.

Wednesday, August 19, 2015

Grace and Favor....

Good morning all-

Here are the things we must contemplate today:


These are the words we must contemplate in the sight of our Savior.  He was our example and we must follow the steps of Jesus.  His love redeemed us.  His death gave us eternal life. His mercy forgave our sins.  His grace bestows more than any material possession on this earth.  Favor is the way to God.  From all of these, we were given redemption, joy and restoration.  I don't have to bow down to any man; I'm only required to believe in Jesus.  I have His divine favor, His divine love, His divine grace!

I am blessed and so are you!

Can you all say, "AMEN!"

Isaiah 65:16 KJV

That he who blesseth himself in the earth shall bless himself in the God of truth; and he that sweareth in the earth shall swear by the God of truth; because the former troubles are forgotten, and because they are hid from mine eyes.

Believe Jesus that He's gone before you all the way! 

Saturday, August 15, 2015


Good morning all-

Well I have just completed the outline for the book I will publish.  God gave me a word and I'm moving with it.  Now that I have my chapters together, it will be a matter of time and effort and with all luck, grace and God's divine provision, the book will be published this year. That's my goal but time is ticking.

Whether it's a number or time, we can procrastinate, wander and never get to our goal or we can scrap all that and be on God's hour, God's time and God's number.  We don't know the number of days left on the earth, how many of those we have or when He will decide to take His bride. He's waited along time.  As humans, we can use all kinds of excuses around time, when in reality, we waste time doing fruitless things that just don't matter.  I know I have for the last couple of months but the tide is changing in my life and for that, I am so grateful.  God is good and He is forgiving, compassionate and thank goodness, patient.  I have needed every ounce of His patience the last couple of months and like the merciful God He is, He gave it to me.

As you all know, I'm far from perfect.  Like you, I struggle with day to day concerns.  I work too much and am often so tired I can't find the energy to even go for a walk.  God knows that, so as I come to Him, He provides the rest and sets me back on a path toward Him.

Just like this morning, work wants to pull me away from my purpose.  And it might of but I made sure that I did my work first and then fulfilled my promise to God.  I wrote down all the things He has shown me the last week and then I got on the blog and my fingers typed this message.  I've been at it since 7 am but I can honestly say, I feel more energized, more purposeful than I have felt in months.  My strength does not come from me and time just doesn't matter.  My time, my strength, my mission comes from a God that is out to win souls and every day, He is.

My prayer for you today is that you don't look at the clock or see the days blowing by.  My prayer is that you will be in today, do what your called to do and let Jesus worry about the time, the days and the hours.  I am and as I write I'm smiling.  Why?  Because I'm under authority and He knows what's best for me and right now, what's best is to let you know how much He loves YOU!

Be well my sisters and get into the Word.  A number means nothing to heaven.

I rarely go to the AMP version but this fit. So here you go! rocks!

  • John 7:6 (AMP)

    Whereupon Jesus said to them, My time (opportunity) has not come yet; but any time is suitable for you and your opportunity is ready any time [is always here].

Wednesday, August 5, 2015

Being the best...

Good day to all-

I'm sitting at the airport and I can't really concentrate on anything but the noise, so work is not going to happen right now.  I'm taking a moment to write another blog because I realize one thing today and that's to be the best; I need to glorify God.  So, today, as I ran around trying to get to my destination, I stopped, laughed and said, "Thank You Lord."  The day comes and goes and many challenges come your way, just write a blog and you will see.  It typically holds challenges that you just thought you conquered or had overcome.  Well you can't do anything about planes being canceled, air traffic control having problems or having to go to another terminal to retrieve your luggage.  All you can do is thank the people that help you, thank God and train to be His hands and feet.  I kept my composure, thanked everyone and was able to get on a flight.  Not sure I will get downtown by 6 PM but I'm going to try, without getting in an accident.

I'm in training to remember that God is in control of everything under the sun and really above it.  It is good.  Didn't He say that at the creation of the world.  He said it was good many times and we are to remember that every day we are training to be the best in Him, for Him and by Him.  Our thoughts must align, our hearts must yearn and our lives must rejoice in the good and bad times.  For now, it is good.

I'm getting ready to leave beautiful Dallas, Texas.  Thank You Jesus for reminding me that every moment I can learn something new.  Be well trained by praying, reading and loving our God for He is good!

Have a great day and God bless you.

To the top...

Good morning all-

When was the last time you thought you were on the top of your game?  Your probably wondering what I mean by this question.  It's simple.  When was the last time you felt the best about yourself, your life, your body, your partner, your ability to mother or your career?  It's a simple question with an obstacle course full of things not of God.

I have been struggling with  myself lately.  Can I climb back on top of the mountain and trust that God has gone before me?  Can I believe that God is enough?  Can I believe that problems are opportunities for promotion?  I love strategy and solving those problems but in this, I am not in control.  I don't have a strategy great enough.  No man has a great strategy to solve the problems of this world.  Do you know who does?  The answer is the Son of God.

For some reason, I had forgotten that I will suffer for the Word of God.  I purposely thought that I was whole and could trust God through anything and then the last couple months happened and my trust was barely hanging on.  I was trying to fix my problems and I was going to climb that mountain and conquer every fear and every frustration.  Do you see anything wrong with that statement?  I is not in Christ.  This world is not mine.  I am not mine.  My job, husband and children are not mine.  Nothing belongs to me and there is no way in heaven or on earth, I will ever overcome.  I don't have the intelligence, the stamina, or the ability to overpower darkness without the Son of God!

I am a mixture of the good, bad and ugly.  I am full of the Holy Spirit and when I trust, no man can overcome me.  No man will be able to crush me when I take "I" out of the equation.  Getting on top does not mean running as fast as I can, climbing with barely enough breath to breathe.  In order for me to rise above and conquer my fears, failures and future, I must put Jesus at the top of my list.  It is by Him, through Him and for Him that I remain on this earth.  It is not for me to be liked, loved, adored or lifted up by man.  It is only by His grace that I'm saved, I'm worthy and I'm His.

There is nothing I have earned here on earth that is worth anything.  My money, my children and my husband could be taken away without a moments notice.  I could be running a company one minute and without a job the next.  I could be revered as a great mom and my child could end of doing something that impacts his whole life and by the worlds standards is immoral.  All that I hold dear will not make me a great leader of women, only Christ can do that.  He is who I must hold above all things in this life.  It is by Him that I will go through trials and I will come out victorious.  My battle to be on top with me, myself and I, as champion, will not win.  Putting Christ as the focal point, pursuing love and not hate and walking by the word daily will be the only way I will win souls for Him.

I am not perfect.  I am a sinner and I am redeemed.  The climb over the past months has been rocky and very slippery.  The slope was often too treacherous and scary but I have overcome through the blood of the lamb.  He has my future.  All my problems have not been resolved.  There are issues I can't post on a blog but I can tell you that I will see the promise land and He will fulfill in me His purpose, not because I'm perfect but because I'm not.  Do you know any other religion that believes that?

My goal is to be His.  My mission field is to preach to women all over the world.  My next steps aren't clear but I know that the power that brought me to Christ will bring millions to Him too, with or without me.  I may have felt like I was at the bottom in the world but today I feel like I'm at the top because Christ picked me up, dusted me off and has purpose for this sinner!  I hope today's post encourages you to get out of the way and let our Savior take you to the top.

"for everyone born of God overcomes the world. This is the victory that has overcome the world, even our faith." 1 John 5:4 NIV.

"I have seen and I testify that this is God's Chosen One."

For all that believe and for those that don't, here is my prayer:

O, Mighty Lord of Israel, I come before You today asking that You alone fulfill your purpose for my life.  I ask that You would hold out Your hands and save millions.  I pray that through these words You will be glorified on earth.  I thank You for the trial and for helping me come through it.  You go before me and I am blessed.  Please bring women from every nation to You and help us all to love with Your heart.  In Jesus Name I pray. AMEN

Until tomorrow...