Good morning all-
I have taken today off so I'm getting a late start. I'm enjoying a cup of Mocha Mint coffee only offered during the holidays and ready to serve my Lord. There's nothing better than that! Anyway, today is a beautiful day in Kansas. We have frost on the ground and the temperatures have dropped into the 30's. The wind is blowing and the air is clean and of course it marks the first day of tryouts for every high school kid in Kansas.
I was remembering this time last year. There was so much excitement in the Rogers' household. We were preparing for Hunter's sophomore year and the anticipation of basketball season. Hunter was always a baseball player so when he fell in love with basketball, we were shocked. My husband played in college and has always loved the game but now, his son is following in his footsteps. About the same time last year my oldest son was wishing he had someone to share his life with. He was struggling in school and both the boys were waiting to see if their grandfather would pull through chemo. It was a busy time and full of unknowns.
Fast forward a year and my oldest son is dating a wonderful woman. She is the perfect match to his stubbornness and intellect. They are both thinkers with big hearts and I am so glad they are together. My prayer for them is that they will find themselves in love someday and that they will be one. No pressure if she's reading this right now. I'm just saying that's what I'm praying for. As for Hunter, he has moved from a small town school to one of the largest and toughest schools in Wichita. He has a dream to play basketball and to go on to college. He is thriving in his new environment. I look back and through prayer, God showed me this was the right move. As a mother you want to protect your children but when God has a plan, you go with it. I'm glad I didn't let my fear get in the way of his path.
The future for me has always been something I wish I could predict. It's hard for me to sit and wait and wonder what thing will happen next. As our pastor spoke yesterday he made a statement that will stick with me this year. He said he could guarantee three things will happen in the future, "we will have troubles, things will stay the same, or things will get better." HMM! What do you think about that?
I'm a worrier by nature and I'm learning over and over again to give my worries to my Lord. I have spent hours wondering if Austin will finish college or will he find someone that will love him. I have contemplated Hunter's future with basketball and school. I have worried if my husband would be able to turn a corner and take care of his health and I have worried that I'm not enough to help any of them. Stupid I know, but nevertheless, I have worried. I caught myself worrying about this season for Hunter and over and over again this weekend I had to give it to God. I can't change the course of his plan. Hunter's life along with Austin's belongs to God. He has set their course and I'm just a navigator with a little compass. God holds all the controls. He can give them the sight they need in the dark and the luck they will need to navigate rough waters. So why do I worry? I asked myself that question a thousand times this weekend.
It comes down to just one thing, will I trust Jesus to do right for my family? And the answer has to be, Yes. If I say that I believe He is the maker of this universe, surely He can right one families course. You and I both know He can, we just have to give up the controls and let God steer our ship. He knows the future, we never will. He knows the time and hour of His coming, we don't. He knows the plans He has for us, right? So if He knows all that, what am I doing anyway? I'm not trusting and we must trust and believe that He is our Shepherd. There's no other choice in this world but to believe that He is near and that He will have His will on us. So, yesterday at church, I gave everything to Him. I gave Him my future, my son's futures and my husband's future. I gave Him my nephew who needs Him desperately and I gave Him the girl my son cares for. I gave Him everything under the sun and proclaimed that Jesus is Lord. At the end of the day who was I fooling anyway, God is in control not me.
So if you are struggling with worry and fear today, take a look back on the grace you have found through Jesus. Look at last year and see what He did to right wrongs, change your course, or simply provide a way to a new adventure. I guarantee He did something last year to show you He was near. I know He did for me. Not everything in this life is going to come out the way we want it too but we can give everything to Him, surrender and let Him have His will on our lives. We worry because we have the outcome already mapped out. But if we follow Christ, we must let Him determine the roadmap.
I wish you well my sisters and believe me when I say I'm praying for all of us. Please pray for Israel and Syria and all the world events. We must not worry about the future but we must pray for today. Pray that the God that knows everything will give our leaders wisdom and knowledge to protect their people and pray that love is spread through the gospel. I love you all and that's because God has written you on my heart. May God be with you today and always.
Psalm 56:3 NKJV:
Whenever I am afraid, I will trust in You.
Psalm 37:40 NKJV:
And the Lord shall help them and deliver them; He shall deliver them from wickedness.
Proverbs 3:5 NKJV:
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding.
My prayer today:
O, Lord, You are so faithful to Your people. As I look on the last year, I can see Your hand in everything. You are the maker of this earth and the keeper of Your people. We worry and fret over things we have no control and yet, You know the future. You are the only one that can provide our path and know the way. We are followers of a great Shepherd and we need You to lead Your people down their chosen path. We look toward You and for Your coming, for it is written that You will come like a thief within the night. Prepare our hearts to turn toward You in all circumstances and at all times during this journey here on earth. We are women needing a Savior. We walk around with worry and fear in our hearts and neither come from You. We ask today that You would remind us of how often You have been with us this last year. Please continue to write on our hearts those women, men and children that need to hear about a Savior. Do not leave Your people without a compass, provide a way and a wisdom far beyond human abilities. We are Yours, come steer our ship and guide our paths by still waters. We are a sinful generation and we leave our sins at Your feet. Forgive us and make us Yours all our days. Continue to grow us to be mighty warriors for You. You are our God! In Jesus name, AMEN