I've been contemplating many things in the last couple weeks. I am close to someone that is dealing with shame, hurt and anxiety. This person is searching to feel good again but the more they isolate themselves the more defeat they feel. With defeat comes a sense of loss, shame and a numbness that really is pain.
It's very hard for me to watch anyone in pain. I can feel it sometimes and it breaks my heart. I see it in your eyes and often, see it in the way you carry yourself. Where most seem to hide it behind a veneer of laughter and a no care attitude, I know you care and that you're feeling lost, alone and worthless.
Pain and shame are very similar because both continue to remind you that something is really wrong with you. Pain you feel because your nerves are firing off sensors and depending on the pain, you feel discomfort, and often if it's chronic, defeat. Shame is hidden, it lurks in your mind and in your heart. Some wear it like a badge and others push it deep down. Either way, there are feelings of fear, anxiety and a sense that no one really cares or could possibly understand how you feel.
Maybe that's why Jesus bore our shame. Maybe that's why he stood and didn't say a word. Maybe that's why he took a beating most couldn't live through. Maybe that's why He hung on a cross. I may not understand. I may not be able to understand anything like your pain, your feelings, your shame but He does. He understands because He took it upon Himself to go through it. He was innocent and yet, His death was the culmination of all hurting people. He knows even if I don't!
Don't let the world defeat you! Don't wear your shame as a badge! Give it to Him. Let Him begin to meet you in your hurt, your pain and in your shame. If He was able to forgive a murderer, how much mercy does He have for you. There is no other figure on this earth that people worship today, that gave their life for the worst of us. There is no one that can understand defeat, depression, injustice, wrong-doing more than Jesus. He suffered for us.
Don't look for me to understand, even though I want to. Don't suffer alone because you feel no one understands. Don't let the world take away your light. I know life is disappointing. I understand shame, I've felt it. I haven't always done everything right and either has anyone else. We are all imperfect. That doesn't mean we have to wallow in it. Look for the light my sisters and see that our God loves you. We are one bride. We are His. He hasn't left us...He's calling us. He forgives, He is full of mercy and He hung on a cross so that you would know—He understands and loves us anyway.
One does not mean alone, it means one in the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. We are blessed, we are redeemed and we are His.
Be well today and extend an understanding ear to a hurting soul. Jesus did and so should we. If you're feeling alone and need a safe place, send me a private message on Facebook. You can find me at @oneservantfulloffaith. Reach out to me and I will pray with you. We need each other and we need our sisters all over the world to hear our voice and know we are under the one. Jesus. Go to the light and the light will lead you to forgiveness.
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, 2fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.