Good morning all-
Well as life goes, tragedy strikes when you least expect it and when you're called, you go. Yesterday, I got a call from my husband's half sister. Her mother tried to kill herself a couple of weeks ago and more than likely she has succeeded. When she called I thought that maybe there was hope but then as I heard her small voice I realized she was hoping in only two things, me and Jesus.
On Saturday, I spent some time with her and I shared my testimony of what I said to my father the night he died. He couldn't speak and he couldn't open his eyes but he heard every word because I saw the tear. And then yesterday, I was called to have the same courage once again. To speak to someone who couldn't speak back and to tell her the story of God's grace. What's amazing about this story is that although she has been unresponsive, when she heard my voice, she opened her eyes.
I told her that I knew she could hear me because Jesus sent me with a message, the message of hope and of peace and of residing on the streets of gold. I told her that He washes shame and sin and that He loves us anyway and that if she would acknowledge Him, He would open His arms to her. As I spoke tears began to flow from her eyes and then I asked her to close her eyes and pray with me. And to my amazement she did! In the last hours of my dads life, I promised to take care of the grandchildren he loved and I promised to take care of his sons. Yesterday, I made a promise to take care of two girls in their 20's like I know she wished she could. And I will. My vows are solid just like this blog, I made a promise to talk about Jesus and I will, but more importantly, I promised Jesus I would be his hands and feet on earth and I'm blessed when He gives me the honor to serve Him.
Yesterday was not easy. As a matter of fact, it was extremely hard. I faced the room my father died in almost a year ago. I sat in the waiting room that I was in when I was told by my brother to come in. I walked down the hallway of a 50 year old woman, who I had watched raise her two young daughters and all I could do was praise Jesus! It takes His courage to do what I did yesterday. It takes courage to watch your parent suffer and it takes courage to face people that don't believe in Jesus and say, "He is real, He is near, and He will save you." I believe in miracles. This world often confuses me and I do ask, "Why?" But in the end, I know that Jesus is the way, the truth and the light.
I think the most interesting thing about yesterday morning is that when I walked outside it was crisp and the sky was black and I happened to look up as I was placing my computer in my car and what did I see but the most beautiful sky. The stars were twinkling and the moon was a crescent and I said to God, "What a beautiful day you have made." Fast forward 9 hours and I'm in ICU remembering those words and reminding myself that God is God and His will, will be done. If you are reading this blog this morning please pray for these girls, one is saved and one is not. They will have challenges to face in the next weeks and months. Suicide is never easy to understand and it leaves the family with lots of guilt. I'm just glad that I had an opportunity to talk to their mom and I'm going to let Jesus do the rest.
If you woke up yesterday and everything in your world changed, I know how you feel. I've walked in those shoes many times and I know the answer. Go to Jesus! We will all face times in our life that we wished we didn't have to endure but like my friend said yesterday, "God is marinating us and our personal pain reminds us of who we need and why." With all my heart, I wish I could protect the world, wipe the tears and make everything go away. I don't have that power but someday Jesus will return and those tears will be wiped and the world will be His.
Please pray for the souls that are losing hope and that are contemplating suicide. This is the third for my husbands family. The torture of the mind and flesh can be all encompassing. I don't understand it but I know that when a person has no hope they want to die. What they don't realized is that this life was meant for God's purpose, not theirs. Be compassionate and witness to someone this week. Ask God to bring a life to you that you can share His might love with. I know I have more work to do. Please pray that I will have courage and embrace the gospel daily and always remember that Jesus is near!
Psalm 16:9 NKJV:
Therefore my heart is glad, and my glory rejoices; My flesh also will rest in hope.
My prayer today:
O, Lord, You are the only hope we need. You fulfilled Your vow by dying on a cross and yet, still people don't believe. They cry out but don't understand that You are near. I know that You are real, that You exist and that when I cry You hear my voice. Send Your workers to the hurting, give them compassion for those that can't see and remind us all that we were just like them, dying without a Savior, until one day You came and welcomed us in. I hate when bad things happen to good people but I know that it's part of this life. My prayer today is that my husband's unsaved sister will see Your hand and that she will begin to walk with her heart open to You and that what is a bad situation will have victory in the end. I pray for their mother that as they take her off of life support that her last breath be a cry to You, where her pain will stop and where Your glory resides. You are a God that saves, please save and deliver Your people today and thank You for Your sacrifice! I will never be able to thank You enough for the courage and strength You give me daily. Your grace has saved me and is saving people as I write these words. Bring the hurting to me Lord and let me be Your hands and feet. This life sometimes feels like a dark and lonely world but then I look up and see YOU! May Your kingdom come and Your will be done on earth as it is in Heaven! In Jesus name, AMEN