Good morning all-
Well as each day rolls by, I'm wondering when the fall will be here. It was 92 yesterday and the mighty winds were roaring from the South, once again reminding me that everything including fall is on God's time. Yesterday was a hard one for me. I watched a young man have to pack his possessions and move from my home because he couldn't follow the rules. It was heartbreaking when everything was packed and it only took an hour. He had four boxes, a guitar and his clothes. It all fit in one very old car. Everything he owns was in that car and it brought tears to my eyes. If only I could have saved him from himself. And yet, only God can.
I thought of many things yesterday fast-forwarding to when Austin leaves in May and the tremendous loss I will feel and of course, Hunter won't be far behind. They are men now and they will be leaving me to take care of themselves. They too will only have a car full of possessions along with a computer and bed but as I walked into Trevor's room this morning, I know I will feel empty when they leave.
I have felt empty many times in the past seven years. The first was when my brother died and then my parents. I know what it's like to pack up peoples possessions that are left behind and realize most can be stored in a 10 x 10 shed. So why do we want the days to fly?
I have asked myself to slow down and be at peace with God. I have told myself over and over to live for today but sometimes I feel myself and everything around me speeding up and then I collapse on my bed, fall asleep and ask Jesus to let me just live in today. No one knows when tomorrow will come and their possessions will be packed by someone else. Of course, on that day I will either be in a nursing home or up in heaven. So as I write, I want to focus on the God that loves me. I want to sit and remember that today is special. I want to be in the moment instead of looking at yesterday and I want to glorify God with my words. He is our Maker, waiting for us to sit by Him and say, "Lead me Lord day by day." So as a woman that can feel the time ticking, I will sit still and ask my God to lead me day by day and I will ask that for all of you too. Time passes quickly, by my age, my mother was a grandmother. I'm not yet but I am on my journey asking God to show me His power, His love and His mercy.
So if you all feel like the world is spinning a million times per minute, slow down, smell a rose and say, "I'm just going to take my Father's hand and walk day by day." Live in today and tomorrow will come soon enough! Be blessed my sisters and pray that women everywhere would know the power in living in today!
They will receive blessing from the Lord and vindication from God their Savior. Such is the generation of those who seek him, who seek your face, God of Jacob. (Psalm 24:5-6 NIV)