As you may have noticed, I have taken some time off this blog to reflect, meditate, and immerse myself into God's word and His purpose for my life. I once read a quote by Beth Moore, and I paraphrase "If you are a writer, you will want to write and no one will stop you from it." Well day by day that passion to write has come back and before I knew it, I was on the blog today.
I have a lot to be thankful for and I guess I really just wanted to take this opportunity to thank my Heavenly Father for all that He has done for me. I woke up last night and couldn't sleep because I was thinking about the tremendous blessings that have been bestowed on my life since I jumped in faith, quit my lucrative job and set out trusting God like I never had before.
A whole year has gone by since an event that changed me for the better. I have more courage, more trust and more belief in Jesus Christ. I'm not afraid if you hit this blog and don't like it. I'm not wondering if I've said something to offend. I simply know in my heart that I am fearfully and wonderfully made and that I have been chosen to talk and spread the Word of God all over the world.
The vision came years ago and I don't have any idea "how" it will happen. But as I read about Nehemiah, I don't have to know how. I just have to pray and do what I can on earth until God opens heaven and pushes me into my destiny. The first step happened over a year ago and the revival and incessant need of being close to God drove me to a powerful renewal of mind and spirit.
I wouldn't give up those hours of painstaking frustration on the edge of deep depression. I wouldn't give up the hours I spent looking for Christ in every corner of my life. I wouldn't give up the courage He gave me or the faith he grew. I wouldn't give up changing from the inside out for a million dollars.
The change in me has been gradual but it is very powerful. My faith has taken a 180 from a mouth profession to a knowing heart. Can I cast out demons? Yes. Can I heal the sick? Yes. Can I move mountains? Yes. Not because of me or anything I would do. The only being that can do all that, is Jesus Christ. He's the only one that can love a screw up. He's the only one that can right a wrong. He's the only one that can lift a broken person, brush them off and make them a warrior.
Has it been easy? No it hasn't or I would have been on this blog every day writing the amazing things that have happened. What I can tell you is that for every failure comes transformation. The world defines failure, not God. What is considered man's failure is God's opportunity. And man did he take the opportunity to change this girl.
Looking back gives me vision. It's easy to have a vision of what you wished would happen. It's harder to take the vision of the past and learn from it, walk away from it and never look back. Life is a series of choices and the first and most important choice we could ever make is to be 100% fully His.
He is our vine and we are His branches and those branches are called to tell the world of His love. We receive His love by doing absolutely nothing but accepting that He existed, that He was the Son of God and that one day, He will return.
I don't have a wall to build like Nehemiah but I have women all over the world that need to hear the truth and call to Jesus. We don't live in a world that wants us to love, to speak, to share. We live in a world of greed, independence and shame. He and only He can remove all of that and give us a peace that far outweighs our understanding.
So as you read this today, know that He is God and that we were formed for this moment. We are fearfully and wonderfully made. Take your greed, your anger, your shame, your body image, your hopelessness, your fear and your worry to the cross. He knows you and He loves you anyway. That's the lesson I learned last year. I didn't have to measure up in man's eyes because I have Him who made me. Man is nothing without Jesus. We are just floundering fish that think we know the direction to swim in. Jesus is the lamp unto our feet. He knows the path, sees the future and knows your worth. Are you going to trust man to tell you that or are you going to let Jesus love you? I take Jesus, don't you?
Well it feels good to write this morning and to give all the glory to Jesus. Come one come all to the foot of the cross where all your worldly inadequacy becomes whole, loved and healed. Be well my sisters and know if this sister can transform, you can too.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
Psalm 34: 4-6
I sought the Lord, and he answered me;
he delivered me from all my fears.
5 Those who look to him are radiant;
their faces are never covered with shame.
6 This poor man called, and the Lord heard him;
he saved him out of all his troubles.
No greater love has ever been shown than Jesus Christ hanging on a cross. Bring your mind, soul, body to Him and He will light your way!