I had a few minutes during my lunch hour to write when this title came to mind. Is it Him I seek or me? It's a powerful question with a few minutes to really contemplate. I'm a saleswoman which means most people think that you have to lie to sell. You don't! However, you do have to persevere, not get down when you're rejected and push forward every day knowing that your job is on the line. That's the career I chose and still choose.
With my career, many like me are full of themselves, in honesty they have to be. They have to be like the childhood story of Humpty Dumpty. You always have to get back up even when you don't feel like it. For years, that's what I've done. I've pulled myself up, pushed myself to achieve and tried to control outcomes, mainly mine.
Over the last 3 years, I wasn't able to control all the outcomes that came my way. I still had to pull myself up, dust myself off and move forward but I chose to do it differently. I chose to crutch on God over me. I chose to let the worry of who I am in my career fall away and in some strange way be reshaped. I'm not perfect so please don't hear that. As a matter of fact, I think I've realized more and more how broken I truly am and how God pulled me up, not me.
The revelation for me is that He must ALWAYS come first. You know how everyone wants to be an influencer and maybe in my heart I did too. I realize now all I want is to sincerely spread His word. It can't be about me being seen. For the first time I think I realize why I'm a saleswoman. I believe it's because in my hands, through my mouth comes the most exciting product in the world, HOPE!
Hope can only come through Jesus Christ and I get to sell it. Not in the terms we all think about but in the way of influence, through truth and through testimony. I'm living proof that the Word of God is true. I'm 1 of the 99. See, I was lost and then found by my Savior. What about you?
I'm determined to remind myself daily that life is about Him not me. I'm not in the spotlight, I'm not supposed to be famous. I'm just commissioned to do what all of us are required to do and that's to light the path with His hope, His future, His word.
See, I've finally come to the end of the road where my success isn't on me, it's on Him. If you're feeling the same way, reach out to me and let others know that you feel exactly the same. It's our time to speak the truth of love rather than hate, hope rather than darkness, faith rather then evil, and God over ourselves. Let's spread the word that kindness, patience and understanding will lead to a greater HOPE in Him.
Be well my sisters and start spreading the word!
Colossians 3:12 NIV
Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience.
Oh Lord, please help us be a people that calls on You for all things. Give us the courage to move away from self and to put you first. Help us to unclothe ourselves from the worldly treasures, while speaking truth to the lost. We are not perfect and therefore, we need you more than ever. The world needs You, please don't forsake us! With all our love to the King of Kings-AMEN!