Over the last week, I have focused on spiritual warfare and the need for Jesus. The two definitely go together. He will eventually break the spirit of the devil and evil will no longer roam on earth. Sin will be broken and the tides will turn but until that day we are in the midst of a battle. We are fighting for souls. You might be saying, "Not me." I can totally relate. The last thing I wanted to do was to tell the world of my beliefs, which can bring condemnation and scorn and I like to be liked. But here I am, writing on a blog, telling as many people that come, that I love Jesus and He is the only way.
My faith has come through many trials and many rebellions against my Savior. My mom used to say that I had to hit a wall at least 100 times before I got it and I would say that's very true. But when I get it, I stay the course. God and I have wrestled and there has been grumbling, disobedience, anger, frustration, fear and now, an overwhelming need to share my faith to the millions of people that don't know how wonderful He truly is.
Everybody worries about whether they will be liked. I don't anymore. I try not to do anything that will make people hate me but the one thing I won't compromise anymore on is Christ. I believe what I believe and I have decided to get out of my apathetic box and tell people. Why have great faith if no one knows it? That was the question I asked myself last year and that's what started this blog. Before then, I would have worried about my reputation, what would people think of me and if they would ridicule me for what I believe. Now, all I care about is what God thinks of me. So, I work hard, try to take care of my family and write for anyone to see that I believe in Jesus and although scary, there is a sense of excitement every time I sit down to write this blog. Why? Because Jesus is in the middle and I love being in His presence every morning. I now fear Him more than I fear people but it's not the kind of fear one thinks. It's a holy fear, full of the desire to be at His feet. If I'm going to fear anyone it should be Him. No one else has authority over my life. The sooner we all learn that the better we are.
So as I have been praying about things, I came upon a Psalm that has been really making me think about my relationship with Jesus. There is no ceremony between God and me, its all for Him and I just want to be in His presence. He's one friend I can always count on to steer me in the right direction. As I have grown up, I've realized that the commandments, dying to myself, and coming into a relationship with Jesus is more for me than Him. He doesn't need me but I definitely need Him and He allows us to make that choice so that when we do say yes, we did it because we wanted to believe in something far greater than ourselves. God didn't have to give us free will, He blessed us with free will. Think about that for a moment. How many times did our parents tell us what we needed to do before they let us run our own course? God gave us the handbook but then said, "You choose." My choice today is Him and I am so blessed that He came into my life and took a stubborn girl and molded her into the woman she is today. I'm sure you can relate. Every time I ask Him to reveal Himself to me, He does in such a mighty way. Without Him, I couldn't even write this page but with Him I have written over 200.
Whether you are a Christian or investigating being a Christian, no one thing, God loves you. He has called you right now to come before Him. He has a purpose for your life, far greater than anything you can imagine. All you have to do is ask. He wants a relationship with you but you have to want it too. There is no better place to be than at the feet of Christ. He is God's own Son that came to save a retch like me and I will forever be eternally grateful. I hope you are finding Him too. If you're on this blog more than likely you are and I am grateful for you. We are part of the great battle and we are loved. I can't think of anything more beautiful than that. Can you?
Join me sisters in loving our God. Please praise His name today and find it in your heart to say, "Thank you Jesus for loving us and giving Your life, so that we may be with You." We were chosen to unite and to pray for our family and friends. We were born for a purpose. We live where we are supposed to live and we minister to those He gives us. If you believe nothing else today, believe that You are blessed because Jesus is Your Father and Your counselor. Speak loudly and find courage through Him that found courage for You. Blessed is the Lord Almighty who was and is to come!
Psalm 112: 1-10 NKJV:
Praise the Lord! Blessed is the man who fears the Lord, who delights greatly in His commandments. His descendants will be mighty on earth; the generation of the upright will be blessed. Wealth and riches will be in his house, and his righteousness endures forever. Unto the upright there arises light in the darkness; He is gracious, and full of compassion, and righteous. A good man deals graciously and lends; He will guide his affairs with discretion. Surely he will never be shaken; the righteous will be in everlasting remembrance. He will not be afraid of evil tidings; his heart is steadfast, trusting in the Lord. His heart is established; he will not be afraid until he sees his desire upon his enemies. He has dispersed abroad, he has given to the poor; his righteousness endures forever; His horn will be exalted with honor. The wicked will see it and be grieved; He will gnash his teeth and melt away; the desire of the wicked shall perish.
My prayer today:
O, Lord, I come before You wanting to be obedient to Your word. My desire is to be wholly and completely yours. Faith is at my door, calling to me because by day and night I come before You asking You to show me Your ways. I yearn to know Your thoughts and to have a heart for Your people. I call to You to help me be bold and to reveal to me my sins. I ask that You would forgive them and to come before me and show me the way. As we kneel down to You, I ask that You would prepare Your people for Your coming and that You would help us fear only You. Wars are all around us, terrorists lurk like ants but You are a God that knows all things, so help us reside in Your resting place. I believe that You have called us for just this time and that Your hand is on Your soldiers. Help women unite with You and believe that the only thing they need to fear is You. We ask that You would help us be steadfast in You, always trusting and never doubting that You are who You say You are. I pray that men, women and children, would choose You as their Savior and that every tongue will confess that You are the only way! May we cry out to You today and praise Your name! You have blessed us with Your sacrifice, You lead and ask nothing in return, You love and encourage even when we are not worthy and at the end of the day, You desire to be in relationship with us. We don't deserve You but we are so glad You have come into us, loving us and directing our every step. Help us be women that desire You and only You. Take our fears and cast them to the sea. Make us bold and help us proclaim You are Lord and please be near as we grow our faith in You. We love You Lord and we worship You. Be with us as we grow in You. In Jesus name, AMEN