Do you ever worry that your decisions will impact the rest of someone's life? Or maybe you're just worried about a decision that needs to be made? Either way, we have to make them. Recently, my husband and I had to make a major decision regarding our youngest son and I was perfectly confident when we first made it. I prayed about it for over a month and it seemed like everything was in place, but then, without warning, circumstances changed and the uncertainty crept in. I know that God has control and yet, I wonder, what if we're making a mistake?
It's hard enough to make mistakes when you're the only one that will get hurt by your decision. However, things change dramatically when you're making decisions for others. I am, by nature, a very decisive person. I can make decisions faster than most. My husband on the other hand listens to many different people, mulls it over in his head, and most of the time becomes more conflicted. He's afraid more than I am and doesn't do well with change. I'm always changing so it's easier for me to continue to change. I also have the Lord, which He does too, but I pray about everything. That's why this time I am so conflicted because my husband is so uncertain and I want us to be likeminded and believe that we did this together.
I prayed about this and believe in my mind that the Lord gave me peace about this decision. I had a peace that surpassed anything I had ever experienced. Of course, every once in awhile, I let doubt creep in. That was easily turned when I reached out to Christ and said, "I trust in You." When I lost my mom, who was the caretaker of my children, I had to trust in God. I didn't have a choice. I was traveling the US almost every week. I was 3,000 miles a way most of the time. I prayed over my sons and asked the Lord to watch over them, provide me peace and help me find another job. I trusted that He would do that. For over a year, I looked and looked for a job, that would keep me closer to my family and when I relinquished my will, God provided. In the meantime, He provided protection and security for my sons.
So, why as I sit and write this am I so conflicted? I just don't want to make the wrong decision. It's hard to know if you're doing the right thing. You definitely can't go by feelings, you have to prayerfully consider every angle and then forge through. It's a balance of pro's and con's and in the end, you hope that your decision aligns with God's.
I'm reminded that trust is earned. And when we trust, we hold confidence that are lives are secure. So, today, I will trust in the Lord that even though I'm human, He will take care of my son. He will watch over him and protect him. He will mold him as he molds me and that this decision will help my son become a better man of God. Maybe, this is his right of passage. Like the days of old, sons were sent off to war, or to work the fields. Today, we send them to different schools and wait to see if the boy we sent in, becomes the man others can look up too.
My husband and I are just vessels of the Lord's. We can pray about the situation but at the end of the day, our son must align his will to Jesus'. He will walk his path alone and although we are guiding him for a little while, Jesus will guide Him a lifetime. Wherever you are today in the decisions of life, I hope that you will go to Jesus and ask Him to light your way. Because we live on earth, we will have to make many decisions and we will have to live by them. Jesus knows and is here to help us, as long as we trust in Him.
Joel 3:14 NKJV:
Multitudes, multitudes in the valley of decision! For the day of the Lord is near in the valley of decision.
Proverbs 16:33 NKJV:
The lot is cast into the lap, but its every decision is from the Lord.
Joshua 1:7 NKJV:
Only be strong and very courageous, that you may observe to do according to all the law which Moses My servant commanded you; do not turn from it to the right hand or to the left, that you may prosper wherever you go.
Psalm 125:1 NKJV:
Those who trust in the Lord are like Mount Zion,
Which cannot be moved, but abides forever.
My prayer today:
O, Lord, my prayer today is that we will rest in You. That as the decisions come we would prayerfully go to You and sit at Your feet. We would ask today that You would provide the wisdom we need to make all decisions and that You would reign in the middle. We know that if our will aligns with Your will, our paths are clear. So today, as women of You, from every nation on earth, we come before You and ask that our will aligns with Yours in all things. If there are women out there alone, please be their husbands and help guide their paths. For those that are married, please provide unity between man and wife, so that every decision would be of You. We are Your vessels, to do with what You wish. We pray that we would be strong and courageous and that we would trust in You, and become like Mount Zion, which cannot be moved. You are the power behind our lives, they are Yours to command and it is our will that must follow. Guide us to Your cross and give us hearts for all Your people. Wherever we are today, be our guide, light our paths and watch over us all our days. We are a sinful generation, needing a mighty Savior. Be with us today and always. Your servants in Christ. In Jesus name, AMEN