Good morning all-
Well I finally slept through the night and got the best rest I've had in awhile. I couldn't believe it when I woke up and my clock was going off. And when I woke, I remembered all my dreams from angry old employers to a dear friend that passed away last year. She was way too young.
I hadn't seen Katie in almost 10 years when her obituary was released. It was the saddest day of my life. We had stood at each others sides, for her wedding and mine and we had been great friends. Along the way life happened, I had two kids and she had her life. Unfortunately, that's just what happens when time goes by, our friends change, but we never forget those that impacted our lives.
She had the best laugh and every time I heard it, it reminded me of chimes. It was infectious and everyone said so. As a matter of fact, people that knew her in High School recounted how her laugh always brought a smile to their face. She had lived with Lupus from the time she was little and had been in the hospital more times than I can count. She was a warrior and she was a great friend.
Last night, out of the blue I had a dream about her. She loved Mickey Mouse and Disney Land. She collected figurines and Christmas cottages. In some ways, she was like the little girl that never grew up and in others she was far more woman than me. In my dream we were in the hospital and she was laughing as she told me all the woes she had been going through. On a shelf, above her head, were hundreds of figurines and I asked, "Why did you bring these all to the hospital?" She replied, "to give them to the people I love and because they make me happy." I haven't thought about Katie much since she died last year and then I dream about her. I woke up with a smile on my face remembering that in my dream she was truly happy.
I had a strange feeling when I woke up because the dream was so very real. It made me pause and then I remembered, she's gone. I picked up my phone to search for Scripture when I noticed I had some new emails, one was from her legacy page letting me know that her online obituary page would be no longer. A coincidence, I think not. In my mind, I must have cataloged this time in place for a friend that once meant more to me than my own hand and now she's with God and I am glad.
Life is so short. We often take it for granted, I know I have. You get busy in your day to day life and you forget to love those around you. You let good friendships go because your journey's have taken a different path but always you have the memories of them and the feelings that were there. I have lost many wonderful people in my life and Katie was just another angel that came into my life, brightened my days and made me a better person. I hope throughout my life, God provides more angels, the ones that show you how to be better than you ever were. I loved her with all my heart and I can say that I regretted the years we didn't talk. She backed off first but I could have pursued the relationship. I made a choice to be hurt instead of fighting for a friendship that meant something. I learned a great lesson a year ago and I have tried to stay in contact with all my friends since.
If you have a friend you haven't talked to in a long time, give them a call. You never know what God will do with it. I'm a better friend today because of Katie and I'm a better person because God always shows me the importance of loving the people He has given me. Take time to call someone or Facebook them, they just might need you today.
I end today with a peace in my heart for a little girl that I loved. She's with Jesus and all her Mickey Mouse figurines are someone else's treasures. She was a treasure to me and I will forever be grateful for the time I knew her. My memories will always be with me of a room filled with teddy bears, a cat that bit on site and a girl who grew to be a hero to me. I pray that all of us forge those kinds of relationships.
Luke 15:6 NKJV:
And when he comes home, he calls together his friends and neighbors, saying to them, 'Rejoice with me, for I have found my sheep which was lost!'
John 15:15 NKJV:
No longer do I call you servants, for a servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all things that I heard from My Father I have made known to you.
My prayer today:
O, Lord, thank You for giving us friends that make us better. If we have had one friend that brought us joy, showed us love and built our character, we should be humbled. I have had a few friends in my life that I know were given to me by You. They were significant in me becoming the woman I am today. I am in Your debt for bringing women to me that understood who I was and who I needed to be. Your gift has provided me with many hours of love and I am so blessed by You. I pray for the women all over the world that need a friend and I pray that You would provide one to them today. No woman, man or child should be alone. Please bring Your warriors to their doors and continue to show us how to be loved and to love. With love, we can change the world. Help us do that today Lord and grant us grace on those that need it. I am Your servant, walking with my best friend, asking Him to heal the nations, bring love around the world and to come to us once again so that He might have victory over evil. I love You Lord, thank You for bringing people in my life that have made a difference and for allowing me to make a difference in theirs. In Jesus name, AMEN