Good morning all-
I'm sorry I haven't written in a week. I have felt less creative, more sluggard, and really tired. I actually slept in for the first time in years. I guess my body is needing some rest. That being said, I have felt guilty for not getting on here. I know that this time with the Lord is precious and even when I don't feel like writing; I need too. Like everything else in life, sometimes my emotions get to me and I wonder why do I do this anyway?
I'm sure you have had similar experiences. Maybe you serve your church, your friends or your family constantly and every once in a while wish someone would serve you. I think it's normal but it gets in the way with what God is asking us to do in our daily lives. We are to serve and yet, when human emotions come into play, the only one we want to serve is ourselves.
I'm not a person that is run on emotion. As a matter of fact, I often have to run on common sense instead of how I feel but every once in a while I find myself throwing a huge pity party for myself, which means I just want to sit and be left alone. You know the feeling. We see it in two year olds when they don't get their way. The only difference is I can't lay on the floor kicking and screaming. Well, I guess I could but who would come and get me.
Our pastor has been taking us through the book of Acts and I thoroughly have enjoyed going chapter by chapter. The question yesterday is why James died and Peter lived? It's really a good question. I mean eventually Peter will die but in that moment, one died and another was freed. Why one and not the other? We will never know but the one thing we do know is that whether we live or die, our lives are set for the glory of God and it's His will that reigns over our lives.
I take comfort in that today. I know that I have been like a shock of wheat, blowing in the wind. I know that my mind is on everything not of Jesus and I know that when my fingers don't dance on the keyboard it's because I've let life take over service. I wouldn't go as far to say that I've been acting like two but I have been in my own mind doing my own will. OOPS! I'm repenting today and asking the Lord of light to shine on me once again. I'm just like you full of daily trials and sometimes those trials get me down. I'm back up thanks to my Savior and I hope you are too. Don't leave me faithful readers but do pray for me. Just like you, I'm human and fallible. I have feelings and emotions that sometimes carry me far from the living water.
May God take care of you today and wash you with His Holy Spirit. I saw this Scripture yesterday and I had to laugh because I end up confessing my sins to the public when I write this blog. I'm just grateful for the grace.
John 7:4 NIV
No one who wants to become a public figure acts in secret. Since you are doing these things, show yourself to the world."
I think I just did! Have a blessed day!