Whenever I begin to grow weary, I always go to Scripture. It has been my friend, my peace, my everything for as long as I can remember. When you experience life's losses, you learn to yearn for the word. It lifts you up when you're down, provides comfort when there is none, and reminds you that someone besides yourself loves you. When I am feeling weak, I try to envision the nails going into Jesus's hands and feet. I try to remember what it must have felt like to hang from that cross. I try to remember that even though He was betrayed, He gave His life for me and when I've done all that, I've come out of myself and back on my knees.
It's not a simple task to stay humble unto the Lord. Like you, I get weary. So weary sometimes that my family wonders why I'm going to bed so early. I have always been an early riser but in the last 5 years, it's much earlier and more tiring. The only time I really tell people what's on my mind is when I write this blog. I keep much inside, not wanting to burden others with my struggles. I have found though, that this blog has become another way Christ has ministered to me. I feel blessed and honored to be able to write what He means to me and hopefully, many will come to Him through it. For me, it's been a journey of wonder. I wonder about a lot of things and eventually, I give up and say, "Okay Lord, do your will because I don't have a clue?" To me that's truly peace. When we can go before our Lord, no matter what is happening in our lives and open our hands wide and say, "It's yours, take it from me." I realize that sometimes I'm my own worst enemy. I try to keep everything close, when really I needed to relinquish it all along. Do you feel that way? I'm sure you do. It's easy to feel like you're in control, when you're really not and never will be. I know believe me.
When we hold on so tight that our fists hurt, we have no peace. If peace isn't present, you will grow weary. Why? Because you have decided to do everything in your own strength. That's the worst mistake we can ever make. It's in His strength we can do everything. If you're feeling weary today and feel like you're falling into the pit of despair, fear not, the Lord is with you. He knows your situation but you have to give it to Him so that He can work on it for you. Keeping it close will not solve your problem, release it and soar on His wings for once!
Isaiah 40:30-31 NKJV:
Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall, but those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run but not be weary,
Daniel 10:12 NKJV:
Then he said to me, "Do not fear, Daniel, for from the first day that you set your heart to understand, and to humble yourself before your God, your words were heard; and I have come because of your words.
James 4:10 NKJV:
Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and He will lift you up.
My prayer today:
O, Lord, in my weariness I come before you. In my heart, I know you are the only way. I look upon your face and remember the scars you took for my life. Your blood, as it dripped from Your body, is my saving grace. Your sacrifice is my reward. I don't deserve You and I often find myself holding my problems and my heart too close. I release both to you now. When I grow weary, it's because I don't want to let go and yet, You call us to open our hands and give it all to You. Lord Jesus, I want to wait on You today. I want to come before You asking for You to renew the strength of your people and help us mount on wings like eagles. I want us to be in Your presence, fully, worshipping you so that in times of need, we would not grow weary. We humble ourselves before You and once again ask our Savior to guide us this day. We know tomorrow will come soon enough, so for today, lead us by still waters, protect those You love and go before us. Convict us of the things we are holding to dear and give us the strength to place them at Your feet. Women, men and children are calling out Your name, all across the world, lift us up as we proclaim the name of Jesus! In Jesus name, AMEN