Good morning all-
I fell asleep last night so soundly that I woke with a start this morning. Have you ever had a day where you have felt so much stress only to have so much relief? That was my day yesterday. I found out I have my health back in order, I'm definitely feeling better and the employee I was going to have to let go, quit on me yesterday and gave her two week notice. Wow, what a relief.
My problems today are not like they were several years ago and they are definitely not as bad as most. I watch people on the street and wonder, should I be giving them money? Only to think they probably are cons. I don't know really what to believe there but my prayer is that I will give money to those that need it. I also am not at war, sent a child off to war or have the worry of leading a country. I don't live in a country where they are killing their own people and I get to talk about Jesus all day long if I wish. Really, I have a pretty easy life and yet, I still find myself getting stressed out, wishing for things to be better and asking the Lord to guide my every step.
Like you, I face challenges every day. A lot of them come with my teenager or my marriage. How can you be the best wife and mother when you are an executive at a small business? That's really the balls I juggle now. My goal is to love Christ first, then my husband and everything follows. However, every once in a while I find myself in jello instead of having my priorities straight and my mind on Christ. I'm sure you know what I mean. You don't have to work outside the home to feel the same way and you definitely don't have to be married with kids to feel like you just landed in a bowl of jello. As women, we face these situations every day. Often we don't feel like we are enough and mostly we feel guilty when we aren't being everything to everyone. I bet it was simpler when our ancestors were gathering berries, cooking and taking care of the farm. The work was much harder, the conditions may have been tremendously harder but they had a defined role and they knew exactly who they were and what needed to be done.
I find myself vascillating between being a good wife and mom and being a manager and trying to sell in a hostile environment. As I focused on what to do the last couple of days, I think I have come to the conclusion that I need to focus on Jesus and the rest will come. If I'm looking for Jesus, I will find my answers, I will rest in Him and I will be the woman He wants me to be. My mind plays games and the world can carry you on waves of greatness to deepest sorrow. I've decided I just want to rest in Him and He will carry my burdens, shoulder my sorrows and provide success where He sees it should be. Of course, I will participate but my goal today is to immurse myself in Him and let the rest take it's course.
Big words and I'm not sure I will always stay faithful but that's my plan for today. I am in need of making some changes in my life and finding balance where there isnt' any. I can only do so much, the rest is up to Him.
I realize that my words may seem trivial today. I have no idea what you're going through and how much you hurt or rejoice today. I'm not trying to make any situation seem easy because most of the time trials are far from easy. I'm suggesting that you let God pour out His love on your life and that you rest in Him in darkness. God doesn't save us from hard things; He uses them to refine us. I'm sure that some of you are having a great week and others of you are struggling. Let the struggles of your life be shared by others and ask someone to pray for you today. If you need a shoulder, I am here to pray and to love you. May God bless and keep you all today as you live one more day.
I found this on YouVersion (the Bible application) and had to put it down on this blog today.
Matthew 4:4 NIV
Jesus answered, "It is written: 'Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.'"
That pretty much sums up my thoughts for today. Press on my sisters and find Christ today!
My prayer today:
O, Lord, You are mighty! How often have I said those words only to wonder what You were doing in my life. I fight against wanting to know more, seeking to find answers that aren't in the world and running from tough times. So today, my sisters and I will stand up and be counted. Each one of us has our journey with You. You take our hands, You guide us and You decide the direction we should go. Often, we don't listen, we guide ourselves on a path of destruction but at the end of every path You stand, waiting and watching for us to repent and to know You are near. It's my nature to question, to worry and to wonder, "What will tomorrow bring?" And then I see a flock of birds soaring down from the top of our eleven story building and I realize, today is today and tomorrow will take care of itself. There are times that I look into nature and see Your hand and there are times that I wish You would spell the future out to me. I wake and wonder what will happen today and then I remind myself that I don't have to know anything but You! I come before You a repentent soul asking You to forgive me for worrying and wondering what comes next. You have set me on a path and the details of that journey are written. Enlighten me at Your will, bring forth Your glory through my life and immerse me in Your Holy Spirit. I don't deserve You but yet, You love me anyway. Please help my sisters in Israel, Germany, Russia, Poland, China, Syria, Saudi Arabia, Estonia, the US and all over the world. We are one body with One God. Please let Your spirit carry us from Ocean to Ocean so that we might see Your hand. We thank You for Your mercy and for the love You have given to each one of us as we have found You. Your glory is all that matters, Your grace is all we need, unite Your army and make us one. In Jesus name, AMEN