Good morning all-
I woke up this morning with a million things running through my mind. Yesterday, I wrote about thinking about God on a more regular basis, putting behind the minutia of life and really focusing on Him. Of course, I should wake up to think about all of it, instead of what I spoke of yesterday.
I asked lots of questions yesterday that none of us really have concrete answers too. We know that God exists, we believe He can heal and we know that someday He will return, beyond that, we know very little. Any wisdom, any idea, and every solution comes from Him. I had a great idea at work yesterday and I know it came from Him. I must look for Him in the darkness and the light. I must follow His word and seek Him. I must trust Him for all things and I must believe He is real!
I know that we all question from time to time what God is doing. I think it's part of who we are. I just wonder why we question it so much. I have read about the Israelites over and over again. I have read the New Testament and wondered how in the world they would have denied Christ and then, I sit and look at my life and all the questions I have asked and the conclusion is clear; we are all sinners. We want to know what God knows and we want to know the future. Guess what? That's never going to happen. We will know what we need to today.
I find myself feeling trapped on all sides. Thinking that I am the only one that can save so many and then I remember the words of Moses and David and realize that even with God on their side, they questioned, they pleaded and they doubted. No man is perfect and therefore, we must strive to understand who God is and what He expects from us.
When David was young, he, not an army, took down a giant. Then as he grew up, he was raised to love the Lord, to follow Him and to be king. As he aged, many trials came and I wonder how far slaying the giant was from his mind. You can read his prayers, see his turmoil and feel his loneliness and pain. He was a hunted man, living in caves, wondering if today would be his last. This very brave young man became a symbol of trial and tribulation and in the end he was said to have a heart for God.
I know that we struggle and I know that some of you live in places and circumstances that I can't even fathom. I'm sure you have cried out, hit something and wished for a day to be over. I've been there. I know how it feels to wonder where God is and to watch for a miracle only to have the sun rise and everything is the same. We can't change what's before us but we can prepare our hearts to be with Jesus, to call upon Him and to believe He is near.
There are things I pray for every day. I pray that I will never lose my children before I die. I pray for the lost and the lonely. I ask God to feed nations, protect women and bring about a revival. I pray that this land that we live in would begin to turn toward God and that people would see the need for Jesus. I pray for my brother's salvation and I pray that many would hear the word of God.
I pray continually and yet, I will never know what those prayers have done. I may meet you on a plane or in a different country and I will see you and pray for you. I watch the homeless and I ask God to care for them. I see birds flying and am reminded of the power of Christ. I know He exists and I believe it. What I will never know is what He's doing in this moment, have I done enough or what things He will say to me in the end. My goal is only to seek Him and to find Him. And as I do that my hope is that my faith will become boundless and I will run this race well.
Today is the 366 post on this blog. In the beginning I had no way to know what God would do with it. I still don't. I can tell you that every day that I write is a day I get closer to Jesus. I pray that you are blessed by the words but I have been blessed by God and at the end of my life; I will thank Him for giving me the strength to sit and write.
So today, remember whatever enemy is on your back, give it to Jesus. You may be feeling crushed, defeated and sad but know that Jesus knows and He is with you. Our greatest gift was His death. He crushed our enemy and someday He will stomp on Him and the pain of this world will go away. In the meantime, be faithful to His word, pray for the lost and ask God to make you women He can call upon. The highlight of my life is not the success I have in business; it's sitting here writing and praising my Maker! May God bless and keep you today! You are precious in His sight!
Psalm 5:3 NIV:
In the morning, Lord, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait expectantly.
Isaiah 53:5 NIV:
But He was pierced for our transgressions, He was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on Him, and by His wounds we are healed.
My prayer today:
O, Lord, I will never be able to thank You for the times You have cared for me. As I look upon today, I know there will be challenges. All I ask is that You are near to me and that Your words would penetrate my heart and mind. Help me capture the essence of You and fill me with the Holy Spirit. I am being counted on and I need You to help me to stay accountable to what matters to You. Raise us up Lord and give us a heart for the lost. Help us reach out far more than we do. We are sinful creatures, questioning the almighty God and yet, I know that You hear us and are waiting for us to surrender to Your will. I surrender to You today and ask that no matter what giants come our way, You will crush them and grow us to be more faithful. I'm sure that there will be someone that reads this blog that will feel crushed. Remind them Lord that You are true to Your word. That You have stood the test of time and through Your life, death and resurrection, You are strong and faithful. I would ask of You to continue to grow us up and to give us the tools to be women for You. Make us strong where we are weak and guide us to You. I stand on the rock of salvation, believing that You are real and praying that You will show me the way, the truth and the light all my days. Please hold onto the women of this world that are in crisis and put people in their lives that will be faithful and true. I honor You today and pray that my soul will believe that all things are possible through You. In Jesus Name, AMEN