This morning I woke up with a song on my mind. Have you ever done that before? It happens to me a lot. I am praising God as I wake up. "I will trust in you, I will obey, I will follow you come what may. I will die to myself and carry your cross, I will trust in you." I don't know the title of the song but I know that we have worshiped and sang these very words many times before. What does it mean to trust in Him?
It is easy for me to love the Lord with all my heart. I honestly do! He has been part of me since I was a little girl. I can remember in my dreams, Him saving me from something dark and dangerous. I feared things but rarely told my mom. The light in those dreams took away the darkness. I remember back when I was 5, calling out to God to help me from evil. The dreams of my youth are still very vivid. Over the years, I have suffered from many dreams that were evil and frightening and always, I am waking up calling out to God for help.
As a child, I knew who to put my trust in. It was easy for me to believe Jesus would take away the dark. As I grew older, that trust began to change. Looking back, I realize that as a child I took Christ at face value, He was. Later, as people began to let me down, circumstances got harder in my life, and I began to sin more; I forgot to trust in Christ. He is the same today as He was 2000 years ago. He doesn't change; we do!
Over the years, I have experienced great pain, loss and at the same time some of my greatest blessings. My road is marked with suffering, confusion, unwillingness to look up and a fear that tomorrow would never come. Do you know what that does to a person? It's not hard to fall in the pit of despair if all of that is going on in one person's life. However, like all things in God's world, there is hope. Hope helped me begin to trust in Him more. I still struggle with wanting to control situations. Being a driven, type A will always challenge me when it comes to trusting Christ. As I have walked in faith, the Lord has helped me trust in Him. I still have loss; I still feel pain but I trust in Him that He will watch over me and set my feet on the right path.
So, where should we go when the world has us down? We should go to Psalms. For some reason, when I read in Psalms, there is a sense of peace that surpasses all understanding. It's almost like I am in God's presence. I love those times. I am so glad God made women to feel. Don't you love when a friend tells you something and the Holy Spirit comes over you like a ray of sunshine? I do and I am grateful that we feel Him when we need Him most.
Psalm 40: 1-5 NIV:
I waited patiently for the Lord;
he turned to me and heard my cry.
He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
out of the mud and mire;
he set my feet on a rock
and gave me a firm place to stand.
He put a new song in my mouth,
a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear
and put their trust in the
Blessed is the man
who makes the LORD his
who does not look to the
to those who turn aside to
Many , O LORD my God,
are the wonders you have
The things you planned for us
no one can recount to you;
were I to speak and tell of
they would be too many to
David really believed that He should trust no one more than our LORD! He knew that he could stand firm and sing to him to find comfort. But if you really read this Psalm, he knew something much more vital, he knew that no matter what happened he must put his trust in the LORD. There is a determination in this passage, stand firm, praise the LORD, and no matter what comes your way, put your trust in the LORD.
Take time to reflect on that today. I have no idea what you are facing or where your life is taking you. I just know that in order for us to be warriors for Jesus; we must trust in Him. If you struggle with this, I understand. Like every woman out there, it is hard for me to trust. Repent and then go back to this Scripture and sing, "I will trust in you and die to myself." May the LORD reveal to you today that He is near!
Oh LORD, thank you for the book of Psalms. So much has been revealed in this Psalm, so my hope is that we trust you more. I know that I stumble and when I do; I will call out to you. Thank you for being the same father today and every day. Mostly, thank you for growing us into the women you want us to be. Please take the hands and hearts of the women reading this and build their trust in You. There is no better time to start believing that You are trustworthy than today. Put a song in all of hearts and help us praise You daily. You are our rock and we will stand on faith that You will guide our way. Help us all to trust You more. Amen